The Spirit of X Every Christmas puts me in the same dang boat, having no idea what to ask for from anyone, while still very picky about what I DON'T want. I don't like people to waste money getting me a present when it's something I just don't need, but most things that I need/want that are in the gift-giving-price-range I can easily buy on my own, and I do. I'm sure that I'm tough to shop for, because I don't have a slew of interests and the few things that I like I tend to submerge myself into, buying all that I can on my own. So, I always end up racking my brain to get ideas for what I want so I can tell my family and friends what to be looking for. In the past I've resorted to RadioShack gift certificates and money, with the gift certificates being something I really dislike but they seem somehow more thoughtful than money.
The thing I'm really missing in my life is a sense of purpose and a sense of accomplishment. I want to be proud of myself for doing the things that I want to do, and in order to do that I need t kno what I want to do. Being indecisive is a horrible horrible curse, and I want out, but how can someone who lacks the ability to discern his wants/needs/opinions magically overcome that? When you're indecisive you're constantly tested and reaffirmed as indecisive. Daily questions like: "WHere do you want to eat?", "Who's your favorite Pokemon?", and "Do you like me? (Check Y/N)" constantly plague your existence and keep you painfully aware that you just don't know. You can try to convince yourself that you have a gut feeling, one that you might be surpressing, but finding it is like playing darts blindfolded, because you can't tell if you're leaning towards something because that's how you feel, or because that's how you wishs yo felt, or because that's what you think other people wish you felt. Maybe it stems from trying to be fair and neutral and non-judgemental, or maybe I'm just really lame.
Anyways, if you're trying to think of the prfect gift for me, do something thoughtful, make something cool, find something interesting and weird that I probably have never come across, or just call me and we'll talk. I like utility, so I'm not a big fan of crappy ornamental stuff, unless you put some thought into it. I like Magic, Star Trek, USagi Yojimbo, Pokemon, and some other dork-store type stuff, and I like making music, but the odds are stacked against you when buying in that area, though it might be worth a try.
Of course, when i'm buying for other people, money usually wins out. Go figure.
