SO maybe I am worthless
Today was supposed to be the day I'd be back at work, and I intend to get to temping by the end of today if I can muster up the ability to head out on the metro and check out who wants to pay me to do their odd-jobs. From what I hear, Temps are treated poorly and have to do all the crap that noone else ever wants to do. Maybe an experience like that will kickstart me on the path to what I really want to do. I'm looking for divine inspiration. I feel like I'm some sort of puzzle that I'll never figure out and I may well be doomed to walk the earth without any sort of direction at all. I took a brain-test online yesterday which didn't really tell me anything. It said I was More Analytical and Experimental, and Less Feeling and Safe-keeping. So maybe I should stop Experimentaing Anally and start Feeling Safe? Wah-Wah!
Pokeman Mad Fever
I've been playing a lot of POkemon on the gameboy lately, but not exclusively. I play it while I'm doing other things, like riding in a car with people or walking around a store or writing messages on the computer (Like i am now). The problem is that I'm trying to power up my lil' pokemans and it takes a long long time and it can be tedious, so I wouldn't want to do it alone or I'd feel like I'm wasting my time, whereas if I incorporate it into another tedious activity, it is no longer a waste of time. The equation looks like this:
[Time Waster] + [Somthing you were going to do anyway] = [Productive use of Time]
Dreams for the Future
I've been thinking a lot about things that I'd like to get accomplished in this lifetime, and writing that equation above made me think about how I'd be in Physics class in High School and imagine myself one-day discovering an equation of my own. Erica was taking an astronomy class and it made me think of meing in sixth grade and going to space camp and dreaming of being an astronaut. Sure, Space camp was a super-traumatic time for me and I'm too tall to be an astronaut, but it still might be nice to work in the space industry. When I think of things I might like doing, the thought of Graduate School comes to my mind, but I won't let myself do Grad School until I knowExactly what I'd like to pursue. I wasted enough time in school with no ideawhat I wanted and look where it got me. Plus I hate debt, so I'd want to have cash saved up before I started anything like that, and right now I have no cash and I hate waiting.
Reward Program
Speaking of things I'd like to do for a living in my life, here's two other options:
1. I got a 2 on seven holes yesterday at the disc-golf course. It was incredible. There's an amateur's tournament coming up and after a game like that you can't help but think you'd rule it, but I also threw a few 5's, so I know I'm not the disc golf Messiah. Yet.
2. When in Orlando, Brent and I worked on a song, and Brent mixed it up, added a rocking solo and redid some of the vocals, and now it's on display for the world to see. It's the first semi-serious song that Brent and I have done together, which was a big step in our friendship, because we're usually just the funniest people you know, but now we're also the most heartfelt. OK, it's not really heartfelt so much as it's about a creepy guy, but I believe we're all that creepy guy sometimes, right? The song is
here.
